February 2025
I just want to start out by saying- we survived the WTF of January 2025. AND now February too. We rock as humans. Trudging along. Making the most of it. How much magic was there in these past 28 days? How much did you stumble upon, create, and hope for? I had a rather difficult time, but I ended up with a win. It’s all about your perspective. Choose to focus on the good and learn from the bad. PMA, baby.
Table of Contents
1. Wins
Big / Small Victories: I went on several more dates, started working out again, went to the beach and dipped my toes in the sand, and… got a sense of direction with what I want to do with my life again!!!!
Moments of Joy: Walking along the coast, spending time with Haley again, and rushing to the store to get a notebook to write down all of my ideas for that sense of direction I mentioned.
Number of Books Read: 8 read; 1 audiobook not completed
Favorite Quote: “Don’t you know, I’m a product tester for god?” - my brother, the one and only, Chance
Favorite Location: The gym because it’s helping me get my discipline and drive back.
Favorite Meal: An edamame hummus and a veggie burger with fries because I was on a date with a guy that I find really interesting and cool.
Favorite Memory: Flying with my dad to see my grandfather because he has dementia and I haven’t seen him in a while. It was his birthday, and he was super excited to see me.
2. Takeaways
This month, I learned that no matter how much love, support, and encouragement you have from external sources, the only one who can dig yourself out of a hole is you. You have to want it hard enough. You have to accept help. You can to choose to want better. It doesn’t matter that you have loved ones telling you words of wisdom if you don’t listen. You have to really hear it, and then do something about it.
3. Failures
Expectation: I would have job interviews or be offered a contract.
Reality: I decided I’m going to make a role for myself.
I decided to take this challenge and make my own rules. If you know me, that tracks. I made my own study abroad by simply moving abroad and finishing college online. I made my own adventure and magic by booking a ticket to Italy for an unknown amount of time to solo backpack. So, why not make my own job role? I’m not sure this is exactly a failure, to be honest. But it was a big part of my month.
4. Was That Fun?
February consisted of 28 days, 672 hours, 40.320 minutes. How many of those days, hours, and minutes consisted of fun? For me, in all honesty, not many of them. This was a hard month for me, but it ended in clarity that I’ve been searching for since December of 2023. Not all bad then, huh? (That was more a note to self.) Ready to close out the first quarter of the year and see what it has in store. Let’s go.
